Gosh, I've never felt this confusing before. It felt like, there's alot of feelings wanting to be poured out. Mind mind is full of stuff. This is the first time I'm this confuse/lost/restless/bored/what-so-ever......all those feelings just overwhelmed me. Adding up to the exam pressure, I just can't take it no more. Luckily I got this blog to loosen me up abit. Spitting out some of my current feelings makes me feel better. Phew!
I'm wondering have I stopped growing? I'm 18, yes. But I still wanna grow taller. Maybe it's because of the microwave-cooked food. Dango! So unhealthy! Guess what, when I in Ipoh, I hardly get the chance to get my hands on a McDonald's Burger. When I'm in Subang, GOD their everywhere....u got McD, KFC, Pizza Hut, Burger King, J.Co, Carls Junior, Subway. =.=" . Now I'm hungry. Damn, I can't eat alot lately. I used to eat 'a mountain of rice', yes, A MOUNTAIN. Now, I can't. I'll feel like puking if I do. ARGH!!! What's happening! Can someone give me a proper explanation?
And I hate books. Why did I goto college in the first place. =.=" ARRRRR!!!! Issit really someone can't survive with the 'common' education? I mean, education is just an insurance. But out there, I believe a cert isn't everything.... ya..I know you must be thinking that without a cert you're nothing...yada yada. *sigh* I hate EDUCATION. Education is like a mold, they set a mold and expect people to fit in. If you can't you're useless, and will be kicked out. Dango!
AHHHH!!!!! *slaps kicks punch pinch yells!!!!*
*bloats my face* that's better. Till then....bye~!
-loyz-
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Emo day...
Today, there's this Dodgeball Promo Tour in college. I wanted to play dodgeball so badly. Haihz.
But my friends didn't want to, so I get too restless and started disturbing everybody. (they are trying to study, because exams is going on) I wasn't feeling well lately....something's wrong with my body. Maybe it's because of my unhealthy diet. haihz. My body starts to ache. My stomach hurts sometimes. I lost my appetite, feel like puking after every meal. I got the feeling like I'm gonna die. =(
Oh well, so after emo-ing in the library, I went out to watch people playing dodgeball. Markus came out looking for me, the out came John, Tze Kwang, Michael and Jin. Hmm...they know that I wanted to play dodgeball THAT badly....so they wanted to cheer me up. ^^ It's good to have friends like them. Alas! I finally get to put my hands on a Dodgeball. We trashed the 1st game....and got trashed in the second game. XD
Very good experience though. Very satisfying. Yummy~!
After that, we went to clean ourselves up and go back to study. Roughly 6.30pm, we went dinner and wants some entertainment after that. We went to JS.net for a few rounds of Dota. Everything went well before something stupid happend. Haihz...
Screwed my mood. Dammit! AHHHH!!!!!! STUPID YOU!!!!!!
...............mayb it's because of the pressure building up inside me. I've never been pushed this hard in any exams before. Now I understand why people will be so dissapointed after getting bad results. It's because the effort they put in doesn't bring them the supposed results. Quite sad hor? Life's that sucky. Oh well, I experiencing bit by bit....
Well, what can I say....people like me is considered very VERY fortunate. Unlike people who have to worried their next meal after finishing every meal. I got a nice family, basic needs and even some sort of luxury.....what can I ask for more? =[
-loyz-
But my friends didn't want to, so I get too restless and started disturbing everybody. (they are trying to study, because exams is going on) I wasn't feeling well lately....something's wrong with my body. Maybe it's because of my unhealthy diet. haihz. My body starts to ache. My stomach hurts sometimes. I lost my appetite, feel like puking after every meal. I got the feeling like I'm gonna die. =(
Oh well, so after emo-ing in the library, I went out to watch people playing dodgeball. Markus came out looking for me, the out came John, Tze Kwang, Michael and Jin. Hmm...they know that I wanted to play dodgeball THAT badly....so they wanted to cheer me up. ^^ It's good to have friends like them. Alas! I finally get to put my hands on a Dodgeball. We trashed the 1st game....and got trashed in the second game. XD
Very good experience though. Very satisfying. Yummy~!
After that, we went to clean ourselves up and go back to study. Roughly 6.30pm, we went dinner and wants some entertainment after that. We went to JS.net for a few rounds of Dota. Everything went well before something stupid happend. Haihz...
Screwed my mood. Dammit! AHHHH!!!!!! STUPID YOU!!!!!!
...............mayb it's because of the pressure building up inside me. I've never been pushed this hard in any exams before. Now I understand why people will be so dissapointed after getting bad results. It's because the effort they put in doesn't bring them the supposed results. Quite sad hor? Life's that sucky. Oh well, I experiencing bit by bit....
Well, what can I say....people like me is considered very VERY fortunate. Unlike people who have to worried their next meal after finishing every meal. I got a nice family, basic needs and even some sort of luxury.....what can I ask for more? =[
-loyz-
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Bahhh...
ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
&^%@^(%$*@^$&^%($@^^$*(&^!&%@!^@&*^!^^!@^&@(!*&@(!*^@*&!%^^^!&%$&^^#(*!#&^#&!%&^^^&!#&!^#!^&*#!#^&^&&*&&^&^%^$%#&^%$##@$%^$@#$$^%&%#@$#&&^%#^@&^%&%$@&%^
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
phewww.....
&^%@^(%$*@^$&^%($@^^$*(&^!&%@!^@&*^!^^!@^&@(!*&@(!*^@*&!%^^^!&%$&^^#(*!#&^#&!%&^^^&!#&!^#!^&*#!#^&^&&*&&^&^%^$%#&^%$##@$%^$@#$$^%&%#@$#&&^%#^@&^%&%$@&%^
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
phewww.....
Monday, April 21, 2008
Decision
Decision is a choice or a judgement.
In life, decision making is like two basic board games we play :
i) Throwing a dice in snake & ladder, which base on pure luck.
ii)Making a move in a game of chess, which base on personal experience and proper consideration of the outcome.
Well, that's the simple way of explaining 'decision' to people. But sad to say, the choice you make everyday isn't that simple. It can turn ugly, like for a chess game...
It can end up people forcing you to make a move you didn't want/plan to, just to keep yourself in the game.
It can also be someone holding your hand and make that move for you, which you didn't realise.
It can also turn out you being blindfolded when playing chess.
Don't understand? Well, try considering the outcome of the 3 situations and linking it to life. You might understand....or you might not. But, I don't care whether you understand it or not, cause it doesn't really matter.
My point is, things isn't always that easy as it seems. Strings might be attached to it and bring harm to you. Learn how to stand up for things that you believe in. Learn to fight back. Learn to make the RIGHT decision, which you won't regret. Make your choice, fight for it and be happy because you made that choice.....
.....because, that may be the choice that changed you forever.
In life, decision making is like two basic board games we play :
i) Throwing a dice in snake & ladder, which base on pure luck.
ii)Making a move in a game of chess, which base on personal experience and proper consideration of the outcome.
Well, that's the simple way of explaining 'decision' to people. But sad to say, the choice you make everyday isn't that simple. It can turn ugly, like for a chess game...
It can end up people forcing you to make a move you didn't want/plan to, just to keep yourself in the game.
It can also be someone holding your hand and make that move for you, which you didn't realise.
It can also turn out you being blindfolded when playing chess.
Don't understand? Well, try considering the outcome of the 3 situations and linking it to life. You might understand....or you might not. But, I don't care whether you understand it or not, cause it doesn't really matter.
My point is, things isn't always that easy as it seems. Strings might be attached to it and bring harm to you. Learn how to stand up for things that you believe in. Learn to fight back. Learn to make the RIGHT decision, which you won't regret. Make your choice, fight for it and be happy because you made that choice.....
.....because, that may be the choice that changed you forever.
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